i’m just “chelle” and i am not perfect…

It really hurts…

:: letting go of a person you’ve just learned to

love

:: reminiscing the good times you shared together

:: shielding your heart to love somebody

:: trying to hide what you really feel

:: trying to hide the tears that involuntarily

fall from your eyes

:: loving a person too much

:: giving up someone you never thought of giving

up

:: having the right love at the wrong time

:: taking the risk to fall in love again

:: hiding your relationship from someone else

:: controlling your feelings to avoid hurting a

friend

:: thinking of him/her every waking and sleeping

moment knowing all the while that he/she never

even thinks of you…

:: letting go because everytime you see the

person, you only fall deeper

:: holding back only to find out when it’s too

late, you both felt the same way, but were only

scared to lose each other so much that you didn’t

let the feelings out

:: falling inlove with someone you didn’t mean to

fall inlove with

:: finding the perfect girl…with only one

problem….she doesn’t love you…

:: helping the one you love court your friend

:: seeing the one you love crying for someone else

:: the waiting also hurts like hell

:: having to hear "… I’ve met someone"

:: agreeing to him/her wish to ‘just be friends’.

:: giving him/her freedom back because ‘he/she’d

be happier with her/him’

:: asking you to ‘forget that everything

happened’and be ‘normal’ friends again

:: hearing that you’re treated as just a brother

or a sister

::hearing about his/her future plans with someone

else when you know that you want him/her to share

the future with you

:: you stopped being friends bcoz her bf/gf asked

her/him to

:: being denied in front of people

:: telling you lies where he/she’d been when

actually, he/she was with a ‘new friend’ or

an ‘old flame’

:: he/she told u he/she’d be leaving you to

return to his/her ex (d one he/she left 4 u!)

:: breaking someone’s heart

:: fighting for that one thing that would make

you happy

:: that is, holding on to a person who cannot

guarantee you his/her commitment unless he/she

fixes  him/herself…then, you are left hanging

for the moment…then he/she

says, time will tell… but you still decided to

hope in him/her and trust him/her

:: PRETENDING you’re OK when inside you’re

dying…

:: PRETENDING to be strong…. and RECOGNIZING

your weakness

:: lying in bed each night, thinking of that

special person you can never have…

:: being with someone you can’t actually love…

:: pretending you don’t love a person whom you

actually love…

:: being in love…

:: letting go even if you really don’t want to…

having no right to say you are hurting because it

was your decision

:: seeing the person you love get hurt because of

you… and not being able to help that person…

:: having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the

person you love and finding out afterwards that

things will never be the same

again when he/she doesn’t treat you with the same

closeness as before

:: having to face the fact that someone is

capable of completely destroying the wall that

you have set for yourself,leaving you weak and

vulnerable

:: admitting that you love someone despite his/her

imperfections

:: finding out that the more you try to hate

him/her, the more you end up loving him/her,

perhaps even more than before

:: realizing how stupid your mistakes were which

led to your break-up

:: the thought that someone used to really love

you and you loved him/her as well but you didn’t

give enough so he/she gave up on you

:: Sharing the one you love with SOMEBODY

else….."

:: making a promise….and realizing that when

the time has come for that promise to be

delivered….the commitment is no longer there…

:: the hardest thing about love - believing it

exists.

nkkatuwang isipin noh.. mantakin mo ikaw na dting manhid pagdating sa love issue ay apektado na ngaun, take note ah, hurt na hurt ka na.. sobrang skit na ang nrrmdaman mo.. dti wla kng iniisip na sakit pero ngaun narealize mo di pla tlga gnung kdli at sbra pla tlgang skit pg ngmmhal.. hay nku! may tym n gusto mo nang umiyak.. iiyak lhat ng skit n nrrmdman mo. dhil ssbog k na.. di k n mkhinga sa sobra.. pro bkit gnun ndi k mkaiyak.. wla kng mgawa sa lhat ng skit… hayyy… hanggang kelan mo kaya mraramdaman ung skit noh?! siguro mtgal pa.. pero nkakainis n tlga,, paano naman sa tuwing maiisip mo ang nakaraan na sya ang kasama mo nasasaktan k n, paano pa kaya pag nkikita mo xa.. ano bng pdeng gwin.. kung pede lng sana n pagtulog mo limot mo n xa at pggising mo prng wlang nangyri.. kung pwede lang sana.. pero, pero wala k tlgang mgwa.. mas lalo lang ang ngyayari…. minsan ka na nga lang mkrmdam ng tulad ng nrrmdaman mo ngaun.. ngaun k pa mssktan.. ngttka ka lang tlaga kung bkit malalim ang sugat n nrrmdaman mo ngaun.. prng wla nang kaglingan at forever ng mananatili sa puso mo n khit anong ipilit mo s srili mo n gwin, wlng mngyyri at wla tlgang mtutulong, di nga to mkkbwas ng skit at mas lalo png tumtindi.. gusto mo tuluyan siyang kalimutan.. naisip mo n wag n lng kausapin, pnsinin, at itxt.. s tindi ng skit, nabura mo nga ang mga love quote sa fone mo, pti number nya naerase mo dhil yw mo xang maalala at inaakala mo n pg gnwa mo un, mwawala ang skit. pero s gnwa mo at sa mga ggwin mo pa,, nktulong ba? msya ka ba? nde nmn db? naisip mo nga minsan, wla kng karapatan msktan, bkit? di nmn kayo eh at wla nmn xang cnbe na mahlin mo xa db? gusto mo n lng mgpasalamat dun sa taong minhal mo pero nsktan ka.. dhil sa knya hndi k n manhid.. hindi mo nmn ksi sya dapat sisihin dahil hindi nmn niya gustong sktan ka.. di nya kslanan kung hindi kaw ang minahal at mamahalin niya.. tama na.. unti-unti mo rin syang mkakalimutan..step by step mkklimtan mo rin ang nraramdaman mo.. tama na ang pag-iyak! You desreve someone better na worth it sa love n bbgay mo,, d man ngaun ang panhon.. in tym,, tym lng mkkpgsbe…